i really hate myself a lot like I probably hate myself more than anyone i know or don’t know. i hate myself more than i hate taylor swift and almost as much as hitler. i’m just really pathetic and also i’m a selfish, manipulative bitch. i don’t know why my friends like me but i sure as hell don’t deserve them.

i actually want my mom to schedule that therapy session soon so the psychiatrist will maybe get me some drugs or else make me dig deep into my past to find the cause of this depression, anxiety, and self loathing.

i’d really prefer the drug option though it seems easier and like it’d take effect more quickly.